Good bye…
Or, maybe it’s see you later?
Have you ever been so dissatisfied with something but still feel like you can’t change it? Or like you want a better life for yourself but you don’t know how to go about getting it? I really hope I’m not the only one feeling this way.
Again, I’m writing on a Friday because it’s about to be another busy weekend. No seriously, weekends in the summer seem like they were made for business and not rest. I guess it’s contributing to the burnout that I can smell. I really miss life before worrying about bills and my next post on social media and what I need to work on next. I guess you guys can smell it too because the more I show up here and everywhere else, the more I feel like everyone is tired of having to engage or read or comment. This is not a guilt tripping letter though because to be honest, I get you.
Tiredness seems to be my only motivation these days. I’ve heard myself say I’m tired of my job far too many times this past week, and I think that the tiredness is just extending to everything else. If you’re reading this letter, it means I wasn’t able to come up with anything else anymore and I’m just choosing vulnerability over everything else. I used to be so proud of my writing and my creations but now, I think I’m drowning in a need for validation to be my strength. I’m not getting it, and so I’m tired. It’s a very toxic place to be in.
Deep down within me, I think I’ve just been fighting the inevitable, and it’s best to stop fighting. I need to take a break. Not just from my newsletter, but from everything. Instagram, TikTok, maybe even YouTube. I’ve spoken many times about how the algorithm punishes you for taking a break and for being inconsistent and that became a reason for me to keep going at some point. But all of these things don’t matter if they’re not fulfilling anymore. They don’t matter if all I’m doing is trying to keep the algorithm on my side or let people applaud me. I want to go back to the original Creator and understand and see what’s next. Maybe then I’ll be able to write something that doesn’t feel like trauma dumping or create content that doesn’t feel like a filler post and nothing like me.
I just have one request: please, pray for me. I really hope my break would be for just one month. But it could be longer. It could be a year, or even longer. I don’t know yet. But remember one thing: Jesus loves you, and so do I❤️.
Sincerely,
Wuraola.
““I am leaving you with a gift—peace of mind and heart. And the peace I give is a gift the world cannot give. So don’t be troubled or afraid.” John 14:27 NLT
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